Up goes my seniority!

So ive been a little slack on my blog for the past 2 weeks..sorry guys! In all honesty ive been a little homesick and just generally meh for the last week or so. You know when all you wanna do is just curl up and sleep and just keep yourself to yourself? I just kinda wanted to spend a bit of time by myself and just kinda chill and shake off the mood and not drag anyone down with me. And because of this, i just didnt feel like blogging and sharing my depression with you!
I dont know what it was that made me feel so shit but i hope it doesnt come back!
I knew i was gunna have downtimes and such, Ben said i would get times when i just want to come home and Im not gunna lie, I did think about it, but it was only a thought. I dont think I'd ever actually quit before my time was up, this is such an amazing opportunity, there are people who would literally kill to be in my position, it would be such a waste. A waste of money, opportunity and the chance to learn and grow. It bugs me when there are people here who are just not bothered and moan constantly. It like, if you dont wanna be here, then fine, go home, at least then it'll give other people who really want this a chance.
Plus if i came home early, I'd probably dissapoint a few people who are backing me all the way, like family, like Ben. He wants me to be happy and he knows how much this means and I think he knows better than anyone how much I'd hate myself if i threw in the towel early!

I got to speak to my sister face to face for the first time in like a month and a half of being here. It was so relieving to do that. I think its what got me out of my depressed and ugly state!
You know the whole, you didnt realise how much you missed someone till they're gone, kinda senario...well shes not gone, im gone, but it works both ways!
I've not always gotton on with my sister..a few years ago when we had to share a room, i loathed her! She knows this so i dont feel so bad for writing it! But going from having your own bedroom for 18 years to having to share for a year SUCKS! We constantly bickered and argued, simply because she kept stealing my things! ARGH!
But now, i could ask for a better sister, a best friend. I love her and miss her so much, its unreal. Shes like the other part of me. Not just because shes like my 'twin' because she knows me, because she gets me, because we have that relationship where you bounce off each other. Evident in our skype call when she was make funny faces about my mother when she was stood right behind her! Love it! With alice, its like no time has passed when we talk, its like ive been talking to her everyday and seeing her everyday. I miss that.
She currently got a photo of her with Ben as her profile picture on fb, It makes me wanna cry! I love it so much and when he sent it to me on tuesday i just wanted to burst into tears! I miss them both sooo much :(

Mother is coming out to see me. Its OFFICIAL.
Shes booked the flights. Its now on me to sort out the hotel for her. Good old Disney discount! Im dreading her coming out, but at the same time, im secretly a little excited. A feeling ive not experienced about my mother in over 3 YEARS. But i know ill wanna kill her after about 3 hours! But my nan is coming too which is kinda cool actually. I feel really touched that my 80 year old nan is coming all the way over here to see me!

So, last week, one of my managers, Yelitza, approached me and asked if i wanted to become a trainer...OMG! Thats insane...at that point i'd only been here for a month and a half! I never, ever thought i'd be good enough to train here. I mean ive trained back home, ive trained soo many waitresses but thats because i know what im doing! Im not saying i dont here but its all still so new and fresh, but she said im doing so well and i seem to be able to carry myself well so she though id be perfect for it. Means i get paid an extra $1 an hour too..not much but it'll make a difference all the same! It also doesnt stop me getting into service either. Talking of that...im almost at my 60 day mark..52 i think, to be precise..thats 2 MONTHS! AHHHH!
But that means i'll be able to take my pre service test and start food running and learning to become a server. OMG! Theyre fast tracking as loads of peoples programmes are ending so they need people! YAY!
I need to buckle down and start learning so I can take my test!
All of the people who have trained me are now moving into service so my seniorty is getting higher as my arrival group are now dominating the areas in knowledge..ITS INSANE how fast its all moving! Eeeeep!
With high seniority, comes nicer shifts...ever since ive got here, ive worked all evening and close shifts, so shifts from 2 till 9/10 ish. I dont mind it as i was new but now, theres been 3 arrival groups since i got here so im no longer newbie, which means nicer shifts! Next week all my shifts are 11am starts with 5/6 finishes...sooo fricking excited to get my evenings back! :)
I have my first extra magic (tragic) hours tonight...its where the park stays open later for the resort guests...my shift today...2-11pm! FML!
So with that being said, i must dash and shower and get myself ready!
Toodle-pip! (Im not crazy, a guest asked me yesterday what the English term for goodbye was! Yeah, that sounds like a dumb question! But he was like it begins with 't'...ill forgive him because he meant the way people say goodbye years ago when everything was mega posh and prim and proper!)

5 weeks in. Wait, so im not going home..?

So. 5 weeks have slipped by. That's 39 daysish. Golly Gosh.
I'm not gonna lie...its taken me this long to feel normal but even then I still don't somehow.
I think its always been hitting me that I'm not going home until next year, that this is my home for now. Well I wouldn't call it home...lets just say for the next year, this is where I'm living. But now, its defiantly sunk in and sometimes i find it difficult to get my head around it, to believe that I'm not gonna see everyone i love till next year. But at the same time, i feel that if i can go the whole year without seeing them, without going home, ill know i can do it by myself, that i can survive in this world and be happy and know that i  will always have the people i love and the people who love me, behind me every step of the way, even if i don't see them.

I HAVE MY BLACKBERRY BACK IN MY LIFE! I have James Dunkin to thank for this and i will be forever grateful for helping me with it as I'm shite at technology and what to do with it!
I got it sorted out last Saturday...literally was screaming with happiness :) I'm so happy i am finally back in contact with the rest of the world! For anyone coming out here soon, try and get a phone sorted as soon as possible...its difficult to keep up and get ahold of people over here without one!
Because I haven't got skype either, I'm appreciating it so much more too as i can use the unlimited Internet i have to use whatsapp to talk to Ben :) that's the reason why i wanted it sooo bad and now i have constant contact with him :) YAY!
I spoke to him last Saturday on skype for like an hour or more? Loved it. Was sooo good to see and speak to him and i love my roommate for lending me her computer. I truly appreciate the time I do get to speak to him as it has been limited and i love every second of it. Yeah that's kinda cheesy and what not but i really couldn't care less! Hes my boyfriend so I'm entitled :D

I went to the Magic Kingdom with a couple of the girls from work yesterday, pretty awesome day even though it was bitterly cold most of it!
We didn't really go on any rides, literally just walked around the park, taking everything in and watching numerous amounts of parades and shows! They insisted I watch them as i hadn't seen them before and I'm glad i did to be honest! Although i now have the songs permanently stamped on my brain as they were constantly singing the tunes!
It was nice though, as when you're on holiday here, you have a limited amount of time and you wanna rush round and see and go on everything, that you don't have time to take everything in and you miss the really good parts of Disney, so I'm glad i did it!
They took me into Castle Couture where we got sprinkled with 'pixie dust'. From the punctuation i put around the words pixie dust, you should be able to tell that it is in fact not pixie dust but GLITTER. I loathe glitter! Think about something you hate, that makes you feel sick or makes your skin crawl...that's how i feel about glitter! It gets EVERYWHERE! And takes for ever to come off! I brushed it out of my hair last night but my pillow is covered in it and its still all over my head! I'm still gonna be finding it weeks into the future! AHHHH! We also bough princess tiaras and spent the day wearing them round the park! So much fun!

We've had another round of newbies arrive...2nd since I've been here so I'm no longer newbie! :) And then we've got more coming on March 22nd! Literally newbie takeover!
Its so weird to think that i was them 5 weeks ago and now ill have higher seniority when it comes to schedule bids and rotas etc! Insane!
But in the arrival group that came on Tuesday, is a girl called Charlotte who i actually interviewed with back in October in London! So I'm really excited shes here and once shes settled down and gone through all the traditions classes, we are so going out for dinner to celebrate! :)

My mothers been back in contact and shes coming out to see me...She said before I left that she was gonna look into it but shes actually picked dates and started to arrange details of the holiday! Shes coming out with my nan, who's in her 80's! So i feel quite touched that she wants to come out as well and see me :) But shes looking at 7 DAYS here..a whooole week! I find more than 3 hours with my mother taxing, so how i am gonna cope with her for a week, I do not know! Its known that if you've got family staying, you take advantage of the fact that they're staying in a Disney hotel, using your discount, and stay with them. Yeah, I DO NOT see that happening with my mother. I think ill end up committing suicide or something! I know that's an awful thing to say and it sounds SO bad but for those of you reading this who know about my mother situation, you will understand completely and probably chuckle at that comment!

Ive got my longest week coming up next week..when you start out in F&B you are contracted to 30 hour weeks minimum with 2 days off. If you work over 40 hours, you get paid over time. When you get into service after you've been here 90 days, then you drop down to 1 day off a week and you work more hours. Next week I'm working 41 hours with 1 day off! The longest and hardest i will have worked since my 2nd to last week at Wildwood back in January now. WOW! Seems like a lifetime ago!
But to be honest, I'm kinda excited about it! Sad right?! But after working in a fast paced restaurant, working 6 days a week, anywhere between 35 and 50 hours to coming to this..5 days a week with a minimum of 30 hours...its quite nice to be picking up the pace and longer shifts that I'm used to and programmed to do! If anything i WANT to do it. I miss the chaos and i miss being sooo busy that you have no time to think, you just do. That's why i cant wait to get into service over here..i miss it! I hate not being busy and having something to do...the fact that its quiet season over here at the moment, doesn't help as usually theres not alot to do! But that's all gonna change, very soon i hope!

1 month down, 11 to go!

I have been here 1 month. Its official! As of yesterday! Eeeep!
Its so weird...still doesn't feel real somehow. Over here, theres no perception of time or days, you are literally in a bubble. Like I have no idea what today is..its like Wednesday right? I just had to look at my laptop calender to double check! Theres no real definition of a weekend so weeks just slip by! Its weird too as we have 2 days off a week and they're classed as your weekend, so your weekend could be Tuesday, Wednesday or like me, Friday, Saturday...which is quite cool. Its gonna be weird going back to reality at home and not living this way!
Ive finally gotten a bank account sorted! Went with Kylie on Saturday to do it at Walmart...yes...theres a bank INSIDE walmart! How odd is that?! Ive set up a savings account as well as a checking, so I'm just waiting for my card to come through the post, which will probably come next week now and then ill transfer those details to Disney so i get paid into that account, not my paycard. The pay card is a good idea but it only gives you one free withdrawal a week and then it charges you to take cash out of an ATM! WTF?! So advice for peoples coming out...open a bank account so it doesn't charge you to take your own money out!
I can transfer funds and receive them too but its does cost if its international...bummer but at least it doesn't charge me to take my own fricking money out!

Out here, every Monday they have whats called Lads and Lasses. Its a UK thing and each week the lads and lasses meet at different apartments before going out. The lads meet girls from a different country and the lasses meet boys from a different country. Its such a typical England thing as theres lots of drinking games, fines and fun going on...its a great way to meet people and make new friends and if you go 6 times in a row, you get your own personalised lasses shirt! I went for the first time on Monday as Ive missed every one of them since i got here, so i figured it was about time i went! It was a masquerade theme and we had to wear masks...i didn't have time to buy one (Claire's accessories over here doesn't sell masks! wtf?!) so i made mine :) using the 3D glasses id gotten from the cinema and some cardboard and decorated it! didn't look too bad to be fair!
But I had like my initiation into lasses with Lauren which basically consisted of drinking a dirty pint...not too bad...apparently the one when you earn your shirt is bad...so I'm building myself up to that! But this pint, which i can only describe as looking like mouthwash, wasn't overly bad...just very very sweet! I think there was melon and peach schnapps in it, vodka, apple sours, lemonade and other spirits which i cant remember! We basically had to down it in one...i did but felt incredibly sick afterwards!
We got a taxi to a bar called Murphy's...I don't remember the taxi journey...purely because i was sat on the arch of the wheel and spent the whole journey there trying not to throw my guts up! But after that, it turned out to be a really good night...we met Canada and played flip cup which i managed to master, even though i was mighty drunk!

I spoke to Ben on the phone finally :) Literally the best thing ever. Was so so good to hear his voice...didn't realise just how much i missed him and I felt so much better for it, so much more calm and happy..was in my own little bubble for the rest of the day! :)
Cannot wait to get my phone sorted out so i can talk to him more and people back home. I MISS MY BLACKBERRY!
Been speaking to daddy Nixon alot too and hes apparently very happy with his lady :) I'm so so happy for him, has defiantly restored my faith in love and relationships...if my dad can, then so can the rest of the world :D
Still waiting on my fluffing package from home to come! Alice said shed send me a load of things, but in true Alice style, 2 weeks later, she STILL hasn't! :)
I'm gonna start up with the gym again, i miss it and luckily they have one here :)
Gonna go and try it out now and I'm thinking i may start with running again but it all depend on how warm it is outside!