When's it gunna hit me?

Its still not hit me. I don't feel any different. Not in a like ungrateful way or anything, but I don't feel like its happening.
Ive booked my flight and sent off and paid for my CRB check. All I have to do now is get my insurance and my Visa but I don't start that until I get my Disney pack.
Oh yeah...WHERE IS IT?! I still haven't got it! I want it so much!
Maybe then it'll sink in? Here's to hoping. I'll let you know.
Soooo...the past week has been pretty hectic and stressful.
Its weird, but after being at my job for 2 years and now knowing I'm leaving, I feel like I've finally come into my role as a supervisor. Like I've obviously now got more responsibility and I am effectively in charge when there's no assistant or general manager around, but like I'm not scared of doing things that I would have been a few months ago, like I've finally got the guts to be a proper manager and not take shit from people..I don't know...I'm babbling. No shock there really!

I had to take my car in for a service as my car used to belong to my dad, who's a driving instructor and so for that reason, my car has to be looked at alot more than the usual car, as its done over 100,000 miles...112,301 to be precise :)
Turns out there was a few things wrong with it, I wont mention how dangerous, but you catch my drift...but Mr mechanic man dealt a blow that I had not expected and really can do without right now.
£631.96
That's how much its costing me to get my car sorted. FML.
All of my savings for America down the pan. Back to scratch now. Gotta work harder now. Great.
Luckily, as my sister is using my car whilst I'm away, my dads making her cough up and hes going to pay some as its wear and tear from his driving. Life is saved!

I just looked through my photos from my family holiday to Orlando last year. That's made me real excited! Like I'm guna be actually living there in 68 days...days..DAYS...AHHHHHHHH :)
Okay, there we go..a little bit of belief this is actually happening!

Come fly with me, lets fly, lets fly away :)

I'VE BOOKED MY FLIGHT!
Oh my lord its actually happening. Yet its still doesn't feel real.
Maybe when I get my tickets..It has to start feeling real then, right?
I don't wanna get there and be like holy crap...this is happening!
Ben was telling me when he went travelling, it didn't sink in until he arrived in Thialand...! I'd like to think I'm a little more prepared than that!
So, that's my CRB and my flight sorted...only my visa and insurance to go :)
How organised am I? Its astounding even me!
Short but sweet post :)

Today I can safely say that I'm the happiest I have been in ages!

Today has been the first real day that Ive actually started to put the wheels in motion for my move to America.
Ever since I was little, Ive always had a parent in the background, reminding me of things I need to do so I would get everything done on time.
Since March this year, Ive lived by myself with my flatmate, Sam, literally the best person you could ever meet. Not even joking.
So since March, I have not had that parent figure to push me and make sure I actually do the things I need to be doing in life, like paying rent and council tax, food shopping and washing. Ive done it off my own back. Something that I consider to be quite a huge thing. It optimises my transition into Independence.
Since finding out I got this amazing opportunity, my brains gone into overdrive, panicking about every little thing! As I said before, I invested in a trusty little notepad that's not leaving my handbag! Its coming everywhere with me at the moment! Ive made so many lists its ridiculous!
But today I started working through them...independently, with no push from anyone.
To say I'm proud of myself would be an understatement! I feel so empowered its silly!
But I actually made a list of what I wanted to do today. It had 5 things on it..I investigated 4 of them and feel so much more relaxed now that I know what I need to do!
From this, I will hopefully be booking my flight at the end of the week, eeeep!
That will seal the deal. That will be the point of no return, the event that marks that this is actually happening!
Today has been a good day. Id say that right now, right here, I am the happiest I have been in longer than I can remember. Life is finally on the up and I can finally smile again because I have something that's all mine.
So Sam, my flatmate, who I adore to the ends of the earth and back, came home from work today, and she sits down and says 'bear (that's what she calls me :)), I'm gonna make you a scrapbook. That's why I asked you to get a quote on pricings for 200 photos' so i asked, why are you making that? and she said 'because i want you to have something to take with you to Disney, so you wont forget me, forget everyone here. I'm gonna get everyone to write in it and sign it so you have something to remind you of home. but i don't know how to make it! help!'
That right there is why I adore her. I could have cried with happiness when she said that.
I wish I could bring her with me!

CRB, check :)

Process started!
I posted my CRB check on Monday and also paid for it! Its starting!
Although, I'm really worried that I filled the form out wrong, not that you really could, its pretty self explanatory, I mean that I put England as my country of birth, not United Kingdom..I so hope that's okay, otherwise its coming straight back here and its gonna take longer! Ahhh!
But that's one thing out of the way, pretty much the only thing I can defiantly do now, ticked off my list :)
It still doesn't seem real to me...like I know I've got it and all but I cant believe that in less than 3 months I'm moving..to America...for a year.
Even when I say it now, out loud to myself, or write it down, or tell someone about it, it still feels like a dream, like I'm looking at someone elses life and not my own.
It scares me a little now.
Like I'm leaving.
My home comforts are no longer going to be just a call away or in the next room. They're 3000 miles away.
The people I love the most, who I see and talk to everyday, will only be reachable via Internet or phone.
Thank god for the Internet.
I don't class myself as someone who will struggle living away from home, I actually relish the thought. I think the thing I'm most excited about is living in the apartments with all these new people and the social life I'm going to get live. I know this will be my saviour and will help me but I will miss every single person dearly and that's starting to hit me now too.
God if I'm like this now with 3 months to go, I dread what I'm gonna be like the week before! An emotional wreck I suppose! ( for the record, I'm not crying or anything, Ive just had one of those nights when you truly realise how much you value a friend :) )
I just wanna get this whole process going and go and stop it dragging!
I HATE WAITING!
But I'm glad for these 3 months. God there's no pleasing me is there?!