So last night I logged on to my Yummy account and all the documents I will be needing for my trip are finally there!
I freaked out...naturally.
I emailed Yummy with my qualms only to find out all the information I was asking was available in the information they'd sent me. Great. I look like a total doofus now!
My CRB application was no where to be seen and this freaked me the most; also one of the questions I emailed. I then read the Disney feed on facebook and low and behold I read that the CRB paperwork is SENT BY POST TO YOU! oopps!
Literally ran out of my flat, still dressed for bed, no make up and hair looking like a toilet brush, (good thing there's no good looking guys living in my block!) down my stairwell to my post box, to find a little brown envelope with the yummy jobs stamp on it. Wow oh wow.
I was defiantly a blonde in a previous life.
But this is the marker that starts off my journey. I'm doing it. This is actually happening and is going to happen. Eeeek!
Today has been a big eye opener for me.
Today I had lunch with my mother and grandmother, a rarity in my world. But now that I'm leaving for a year, I feel more obliged to want to see my mother. My gran I have always wanted to, but I'm always so busy, I never get enough time to make the trip to Aylesbury.
To put you in the picture, not too much mind, the relationship between my mother and I and my younger sister has been more than strained for the past 3 years due to the breakdown of my parents marriage.
Its safe to say that I'm a fully fledged daddy's girl and I'm not ashamed to admit it. Its the way its always been. Dad was the one you went to if mum said no. Its textbook.
But my mother made my life a misery between 2006-2009. You see, my parents separated in 2006 and were then divorced by 2008 and up until last year, we were all living in the same house. Yes. Me, my younger sister, my dad and my mother. Hell is not the word i would use to describe those 2/3 years. Closer to torture.
But that's the reason and I don't like to talk about it so lets move on.
You only have one family and that's it. I'll regret not making amends in the future, if i don't start now.
My eyes were also opened to see the beauty of the friends I have, that I don't see often enough, that I should see more often, rather that the cycle of bad friendships I had or have right now.
A simple evening with someone I adore defiantly cures the heartbreak of a friend I had who's flitted away. I adore Ben. He is amazing.I take him for granted sometimes and I hate that.
Movies, popcorn and alot of chatting and laughing is defiantly a well spent evening, something I'm missing because of working so much.
I'm going to miss Ben alot..he makes me laugh so much, so easily.
I'm gunna make a point of spending more time with everyone I can and the ones that I don't see much of..
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